Not Born to Write (en Inglés) - Cristina Gherghel

You have been told to visualize your way out of darkness.
You have been told to talk to your inner child.
You have been told that resilience is a choice.
What if you have no mind’s eye? No inner voice? No auditory imagination?
Not Born to Write is the anatomy of an author who has produced thousands of books and cannot make a living. Written by an independent cognitive scientist, philosopher of mind, and expert in abuse-the book speaks from inside panmodal aphantasia and a mind without inner speech.
This witness statement and trauma theory argument expose an uncomfortable truth: mental imagery is not a party trick. Its absence might not prevent creativity; it prohibits self-regulation and escape from an unbearable reality.
Aphantasia, anauralia, and anendophasia are structural absences. Combined with chronic stress and adversity, they force the body to pay a devastating price. Fleshbacks.
This true story reports the failure of survival of a human isolated at the border of existence-gasping for air between the water bill and the royalty check.
It is the spiral of a writer who cannot market, cannot sell, cannot perform.
It is the cost of breathing when every blow arrives unbuffered.
Content warning: Not Born to Write contains suicide discussions. Reader discretion is advised.